Late Night Musings
Journal Entry: Fri Dec 16, 2005, 11:33 PM
Well here I am again, up at 12:30 in the morning, worrying myself to death over nothing. At least I think it's nothing. Why do I let these stupid images keep me up anyway? Why is part of me so sure that one of us will hurt the other? At least I'm getting better at self control. I didn't send you that e-mail, not yet anyway. At this rate I don't think it will matter but it's always better to reflect than act to implusively. I should know. All my impluses do is cause trouble. I try so hard not to think about it. I don't want to hurt you or vice versa. But all I see in my head is me with tears in my eyes. All I can see is you with that worried look on your face, asking me, "What's wrong?" Why can't I get that out of my head? Am I really so sure that will happen? I guess something must be wrong because that same image has been stuck in my head for nights on end. It feels like weeks. Maybe it has been. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like no one understands. Which I know isn't true, I hate that I'm so pessimistic. Even praying doesn't seem to help (even though I'm a Christian). Nothing will make this go away, at least it seems that way. All I can do is sit here and wait, wait until I stop imagining things. Or untiil these images come true. I can only hope that never happens. But given the frequency, I'm not so sure.
Devious Comments
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Let yourself go.
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Let yourself go.
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Or you can just click here: [link] ...
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Let yourself go.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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"Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens." ~Jimi Hendrix
And while I'm here, thanks for the
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Or you can just click here: [link] ...
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Let yourself go.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Let yourself go.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Let yourself go.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Let yourself go.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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animewritergirl
It's not the fame itself that makes you famous but what you do with it that does.
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Oooo! Mr. J!
Every day i'm hustlin. ;]
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As quickly as the storm rages through; only one image is left imprinted on the mind.
From the gloominess it disperses it still stands to show a strong, strong light.
Which hardly stands to show evidence of the storm in the first place.
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